Love Is Waiting

 This song speaks volumes to me....I get 2 different yet similar meanings from the words "Love is Waiting". The first being that I am "saving" my love to give to whoever it is that God has intended me to be with. The second is that Waiting is a definition of love. I am showing my future husband that I love him by my Waiting.That's what love does...It Waits. I have listened to this song a hundred times over the last few years. It is still ministering to me and encouraging me.

Let none that wait on the Lord ever be put to shame.

This is where I am... <3 Sharon

p.s. I highlighted my favorite lines. She is such a brilliant writer.


Here are the Lyrics:

In the autumn on the ground, between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
i watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories - whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it's time to walk that way we wana walk it well

[CHORUS]
I'll be waiting for you baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right
Love is waiting

It's my caution not the cold
there's no other hand that i would rather hold
the climate changes, im singing for the strangers about you
dont keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
the bets are getting surer now that you're my man

I could right a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
and like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart

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Called to the Nations

In the Summer, I will be going on my first mission trip. I, along with Staff and Juniors and Seniors at Lafayette Christian School, will be traveling to the country of Honduras. I am very excited. God made the way for me to go on this trip and I believe he has a special purpose in store for me...

I feel like It will be the beginning of my adult ministry to the nations. God has called me to be a worship leader. He has gifted me with an anointing that only He can give and that humbles me every time I open my mouth to sing. I know that my voice has been given to me by God to be used for HIS GLORY ALONE. My one desire is to sing TO Him and FOR Him for as long as I live. I believe that part of God's plan for me is serving with a worship team to impact this generation and the next and traveling to wherever God may lead to spread the gospel.

I am coming to an understanding now that the dreams that God has placed in my heart that simply seem impossible, are the ones that I need to not be afraid to go after anymore. After all, God put them there. They aren't silly! They are divinely possible!! I have surrendered all control of my life to him...I work at this everyday. My prayer is that He will have His way! All I desire is to Please Him!

So as I go to Honduras in the summer, I ask that God would give me more of an understanding of what He has called me to do. I will be leading spanish worship songs at a church. I am so excited!! Im my heart I really don't believe this is just another mission trip. I'm looking for the Lord to change me...and He already is! Other ways we will be serving are in an orphanage, teaching english in a school, and cooking food for a village. I am so thankful that God has made the way for me to go! I can't wait!

Help Me See..

Have you ever thought you knew for sure what God was doing and wanted to happen in your life? It seemed so clear because You weren't doing anything and that He was making it all happen? All you were doing was waiting on Him and pleading for him to have his way and as you waited you saw prayers answered right before your very eyes? The posture of your heart was one of surrender and submission? All you wanted was for him to be pleased and knew for sure that he was blessing you for your obedience in waiting on him and letting him work?

I am finding that when It seems like I think I know what God is doing, I need to take a step back and make sure my expectations are not on what I know, but just simply on ...God Himself. Every time I start to feel like I understand, God throws in another variable to my life that makes me question what He is doing....because I thought I had finally figured it out.

But His ways are not my ways. And His thoughts certainly are not mine. But they are being conformed to his little by little, day by day. I need so much more wisdom and understanding of Who he is. Our God is unsearchable and to quote a song by Misty Edwards, "I will waste my life. I'll be tested and tried with no regrets inside of me just to find I'm at Your Feet."

Here is song I wrote a few days ago that these thoughts inspired:

Help Me

Verse 1:
In the midst of this rollercoaster
How can I believe
That you are in Control
And that you’ll never leave
Because I feel that you have left me
Left me all alone
My heart feels so far from you
I can’t stand this anymore

Verse 2:
This test  just seems too hard to bear
How can this be your plan
This all just seems so unfair
How can I understand
But somewhere deep in my heart
I know that you are there
Causing me to want you
And to cry out in deperate prayer

Chorus:
Help me to see through your eyes
Save me from the lies
Oh Help me to understand
Help me to hear with your ears
Cast out all my fear
Oh Take me in Your hands

Bridge:
Your ways are Higher than mine
Your thoughts are so unlike mine
You are God eternal
 Lord Immortal
You are everything
More than all I need

Speaking the Truth in Love: some food for thought

So tonight I heard a sermon on some verses in Ephesians 4... The context is the Unity of the church.

In verse 14 Paul is telling the people that we are no longer to act like children in our faith being tossed to and fro being carried away by false doctrine...He goes on in verse 15 to say that we are to always confront these lies and speak the truth in love : "But speaking the truth in Love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ." KJV

I looked up the words Speaking in truth in the Lexicon in the back of my Bible. 

•   not only referring to speaking the truth but referring to presenting an action as truth and not counterfeit.

I looked up the word Love:

• Benevolent Love, however, it's benevolence, is not shown by doing what the person loved desires, but what the one who loves deems as needed by the loved one.

I am still studying... goodnight

Songwriting

I have picked back up with my songwriting...I am really enjoying it. I used to wait for inspiration to write a song, but a friend of mine who is a songwriter for a living shared with me that it is best to use your tool regularly and write as many songs as you can as often as you can. I am not much of a writer...God helps me alot :), but I do enjoy songwriting. I am going to work diligently with the time God has given me and hopefully prepare myself for what God has planned for me in the future.

You're Worth It!!!

 This is back from a Couple years ago, but I still need to speak this over my heart. I constantly need the Lord to remind me of my worth. Deep in my heart I sometimes still feel not good enough, not worth it, and not beautiful. When the Lord tries to bless me with Supernatural Blessings (you know, the ones that only could have been the Lord because they are so amazing), I tell myself I don't deserve them, that I don't believe they are real because they are so amazing....This in turn hinders me from receiving them. At first I thought I was being humble, But I realize now that all this is is a False Humility and Self Deprecation. I am unable to receive and believe in a miracle cause of False Humility...How sad. But the Lord is Gracious! Lord, Change my heart and remind me who I am in You and Allow me to believe in and receive your Supernatural Blessings!

Here is my old blog:

Prov. 31:10 says,
"Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies."

This is a well known verse and i honestly have never understood it. I had never seen it before now, but it says her PRICE is far above rubies. I mean i have read this verse a million times, but i have not understood this until now. I have been asking the Lord what it means to be a woman of virtue. This is a little bit of what he has revealed to me:

A virtuous woman realizes that she is worth So Much and that her heart belongs to Jesus and she must guard it above all things (Prov 4).
God designed a woman to want to be pursued and He designed the Man to want to do the pursuing. When we get these out of order, things get messy, confusing, and painful for both genders.
A virtuous woman does not give her heart away.We women are eager to be submissive, to be loved, to be cared about, to be chased after. This comes with a price. Women we MUST WAIT! There is no getting around it.If they want us they WILL pursue us. When we don't wait, it just causes confusion.Now im not saying that you can't be friends and all that. But if you like the guy and he's not doing anything about it and you decide you are going to help him out and make the first move....DON"T DO IT! When we don't wait, the guys are not able to chase us.We go ahead and give them parts of our heart expecting them to know what to do with it when they haven't worked for it...then we wonder what is wrong, why they don't pursue us. Well...if we have already given them our heart , there is nothing for them to chase after!

We have to understand that , as a woman, we come with a price! And it's more costly than rubies!! You are not worthless! You are worth everything to God! It's a picture of Christ and his Bride the church. HE gave everything for you! So be who you are called to be: A VIRTUOUS WOMAN. God wants to bless you beyond your wildest imaginations if you'll only WAIT! Then the men can truly be men and pursue us.

Our responsibility is to guard our heart until the right man comes along who will WORK ...to get the MONEY.....to pay the PRICE .....for Us!! Because A woman after GOD's Heart is WORTH IT!


"And though the hardest part is THE WAITING in the end it mean everything to be presented pure and blameless to HIM." - from The Waiting

first time blogger

Soo....I have thought about starting a blog for a long time. I have always wanted to, but never thought that I would keep up with it or even have anything to say worth being read by others. However I have decided to give it a chance. We shall see what happens...